Saturday, October 28, 2017

31st

Daily Log

Time Check: 12:20AM
Date: 29 October 2017

It's my 31st birthday. I don't feel old. But my face, skin and the rest of my body confirms it. I should be grateful to GOD for giving me another year to experience His grace and mercy. However, I don't feel so excited about birthdays as I haven't celebrated it meaningfully for the last 10 years.

I've been contemplating about how I spent the last 10 years of my life and realized I wasted so much time dwelling on my selfish and pointless dreams. People just came and go but I was unable to cultivate strong relationships outside my own family. I don't have a fixed group of friends. Neither do I have a lover.

Ideally, I should be building a home/family of my own at this age. But the idea of getting in a marriage relationship with the wrong guy scares me. I'd like to invest in a romantic relationship but I'm afraid I might choose the wrong person. In the end I spent all my vacant time alone with wifi.

I know I should start dating. But most of the guys that come to me didn't pass the basic standards. What should I do? I can feel my skin sagging and my energy depleting.

Dear LORD please grant me the wisdom to choose what is right for me. In Jesus Name. AMEN

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Must Have Shoes

When it comes to footwear, all I care about is comfort and what I needed most of the time. But as I age, I realized I need to have different shoes for different occasions/purposes. Since I don't really buy shoes I don't usually wear, I tend to cram for appropriate shoes during special occasions and end up wearing the wrong ones (lol). So yeah, I'll charge those to experience.

So basically, I am working my way to acquire the following shoes that I needed and not just something that will take space.

1) TENNIS SHOES (they're mostly called sneakers): White & Black (Both must be Leather)

2) BALLET FLATS (or Doll Shoes): Rubber/Jelly (Black & Nude)

3) FLAT SANDALS: (Black & Skin-tone)...They're comfy but more classy than slippers.

4) RUNNING/TRAINING SHOES

5) PLATFORM PUMPS (If I can actually avoid stilettos without looking disastrous)

6) STILETTOS (Nude)